Two years ago I met a Dom on one of the websites I belong to: the discussion board of www.literotica.com . Long hours of chats and emails (and all that stuff that you seem to be familiar with) resulted in a long term, committed D/s relationship. I am collared and more importantly, I am IN LOVE with my Master. It is a long distance relationship in that we are separated by a thousand miles, but we meet every 2 or 3 months for weekends or weeks together. From the beginning we have practiced spanking, both as punishment and erotic play. When we first began, we were very careful and cautious. Sane and consensual are important, but because we both are in healthcare, SAFE was our first priority. Spankings weren't too hard back then. Over time the force of spanking has increased; he's left me bruised and marked and breathing heavily. He's had me begging him to stop and squirming all over the place. But he's never quite broken me or driven me to tears ... and we both know I need that. I need to feel that final surrender and give over the last of my control by releasing my tears and get over being ashamed of crying uncontrollably in his presence. My pride is a huge hindrance in this relationship.
Now, after all this which you probably didn't want to know about me (lol), the whole point of my note to you is to say that the audios of Sandy's spankings and especially those of Steph touched a nerve within me. My head was screaming to me .. THAT is EXACTLY what you want from George (my lover and Master). George knows I need it, and he says he is going to give me that spanking next time we're together. George promises not to stop just because I whimper. My safeword has been taken away (with my consent) because I have often safeworded too soon *blushes*. I am going to forward the link to your website to him after I am done writing this email to you. I want him to hear and understand that I am okay with that severe punishment. There are things I deserve to be punished for (lying, in particular); I might hate what he's doing at the time, but I will love him even more afterwards. I want him to take me to task. I want him to be stronger than I am and demand that I take my punishment. I'm strong willed. I'm a brat. I NEED him to do this to me .. for me ... for us.
Thank you for sharing your experiences online. It's given me such assurance for my future. Your website and audio aren't "entertainment spanking porn" (which is so fake and cheesy); your website is real. Real people, real emotions, real pain, real release, real surrender. It's beautiful, Doc. It's so beautiful.
~Mandy