Dear Doc Tsai --
You said not to be shy. You even provide a form, so I take it that your request for contact -- virtual and real -- is serious. I think I have too much to say for your form, and actually I prefer the freedom of the blank page. I have struggled with the ethics of writing you. I am married and really think my husband, whom I love and respect, would not approve of everything I am about to say, or even of the fact that I am saying it to you at all. But your writings have been so important to me these last few weeks -- so captivating, helpful, and yes, stimulating in every sense of the word, that I am moved to write. I have almost convinced myself that it is unethical not to write, because in sharing my spanking "kink" with you, I can give a little something back to you in exchange for all I've received.
So I am officially going to "delurk" here, to you, virtually and privately. I was particularly touched -- taken in, really -- by the clarity and honesty of your own delurking piece. It helped me more than any other single thing I'd read, either on the internet or in hard copy, to understand and accept the complexity of my own spanking desires. How is that I, a 51-year old professional, with a quick, acerbic tongue, who would never bend over and take it in or on the ass professionally wants nothing more than to do just that in her personal life? What sort of strange intervention of the gods, DNA, nature or nurture produced this particular quirk in my character, being, orientation and psycho-sexual dynamic? And why did it take me so long to admit it, explore it, and enjoy it?
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