Cat, Sunday

This sound file has three parts.

The preparation, as Doc gets ready to punish Cat.

The punishment itself.

And the aftermath, as Cat weeps, and Doc then leads her back to the bedroom so that he can calm and comfort her.

This is an intense punishment. Please don't listen to it without reading our commentary (see links below).

Taken in isolation, this punishment is literally horrifying. Taken as part of a complex relationship based in desire and trust, a new reality of consensuality and shared achievement emerges.

Here's the setup. Cat's in the strait jacket, over the couch, tied to the feet of the couch.

Her ankles are also cuffed and tied to the couch.

Transcript by JC

Laughter between Cat and Doc; they’re talking about me (JC).

Cat: …and I said that y’all are going to laugh when you read the end of the narrative.

Doc: Um hmm

Cat: And she sends back another email, she says now I really am sorry, I did laugh.

Shared laughter

Doc (quiet, serious voice): She’s suffering the same restriction you are. (both of us are prohibited from masturbating)

Cat: Yes I saw that. I did tell, I said I did have to admit that it did make me smile a little bit to see that she couldn’t either.

Only Cat is laughing this time, trying to be light

Doc: sudden cold, soft voice: I think I’ll restrain you in the strait jacket again.

Cat: Ok

Doc: Over the couch.

Cat: Ok

Doc: What I want you to do is go back in the bedroom, go to the implement toy bag, and pick out every item there that’s made of lexan and bring them back here.

Cat: (small, nervous voice) I don’t know what lexan is.

Doc: It’s a clear plastic.

Cat: Ok, the bag on the right or the left?

Doc: The left suitcase.

Cat: Thank you.

Doc: Very good. Now, go back there and get every strap. I’ll also need a sheet to put over this (the couch).

Cat: There are significantly more straps then there are Lexan things.

Doc: That’s fine. We have enough time. Put them down there next to the lexan paddles.

Doc: Do you have a last will and testament?

Cat laughs

Cat: My final statement is there’s a thing as karma. (she actually said, “My final statement is, JC, there’s such a thing as karma” but it was disrupted in sound file processing)

Discussing arranging the sheet over the couch

Doc: Just in case you wet your pants or something, it’ll soak up some of it.

Cat: You have the most amazingly evil look in your eyes.

Doc: You’re reading me right.

Cat: Is it too early for rum?

Doc: Um-hm! Today’s no warm up, no rum.

Cat: I’m leaving you … that. (not sure what she’s referring to)

Doc: Thank you! The next time you come, we can toast to your health.

Doc: (very cold, commanding voice) Strip!

Cat: Panties on or off? (tiny voice)

Doc: Hmm

Cat: Panties on or off?

Doc: Off, strip completely. Leave your necklace and nipple rings on.

There you go.

Doc: Strait jacket is being fastened. (loud snaps) How does that feel?

Cat: Ha hm

Doc: How do you feel?

Cat: There aren’t even words for it.

Doc: That’s how happy you are?

Cat: That’s probably not the right adjective.

Doc: Not the right adjective?

Come over here. Bend over the couch.

How is that? Is your chest on that pillow comfortable? Good.

Doc: You’re not going to be able to adjust it much once I get you tied. At this point you’re still nearly unrestrained; you’re just in the (strait) jacket. We’ll change that.

(time 5:00)

Doc: Cat

Cat: Hm?

Doc: You have no safeword this morning.

Long, tense pause, then tiny, mumbled, yes sir.

Doc: A little louder, please.

Cat: Yes sir.

Doc: And what else? Besides “yes sir”?

Cat: Thank you?

Doc: A little louder.

Cat: Thank you.

Doc: That’s correct. Good girl. A lot of women want to be spanked without a safeword, and it’s not something that I do lightly.

Doc: You look as if you’re praying.

Cat: I don’t pray.

(Doc is tying her up)

Doc: This string is too elastic. I’m going to replace it with something that doesn’t stretch. I want you not to have to worry about whether or not you should jump up. I want you to just be able to lie there and take it. How’s that sound to you?

Cat: Mmm

Doc: Does that sound good to you?

Cat: (mumbles)

Doc: This is better.

Doc: I worry about you a little. . . . I think it’ll work out OK.

Now how far can you stand up? (testing the ropes) It’s not very far.

Cat: No! . . . (sounding very nervous) Why do you worry about me?

Doc: Just how you’re going to deal with this. Whether you’ll be OK. I think you probably will. You’ve shown how tough you are. But you never know till it actually happens, do you?

Doc: Now let’s get cuffs on your ankles.

Is this a comfortable position overall?

Cat: Overall, yes.

Doc: You’re not putting too much weight on the wrong places?

Cat: It’s good.

Doc: Good girl. I like you lifting your ankle up so I can cuff it for you.

Cat: I’m nothing if not accommodating.

Doc: There we go. We’ve got the same goal, I think. Now what is our shared goal?

Tell me.

Cat: hmm?

Doc: What is our shared goal this morning?

Cat: Pain?

Doc: Um hmm, that’s a good way to put it. How much pain?

Cat (tiny voice): Lots of pain.

Doc: Um-hm! There’s a better way to put it though, besides “lots of” in terms of amount. . .

Cat: Tremendous?

Doc: Well, as much as I can; it’s the maximum, whatever that turns out to be.

I mean I hope that…

Put your foot back down again…

So the maximum will be, the most I can manage. I could give you a lot of pain, without

giving you the maximum. That would be a shame, after all this that you’ve traveled, and

everything that you’ve put up with so far. Put your foot a little bit down … That’s OK.

Is that comfortable?

Doc: I don’t want to deprive you of anything. I want you to go home satisfied, to do my very best.

Doc: What is this?

Cat: A blindfold.

Doc: Do you want that?

Doc: You shrug . . . I’m going to put it on you, if you want it or not. Let me see if I can get this in a way that doesn’t hurt your ears. Is that comfortable?

Cat: um-mm

Doc: How much can you see?

Cat: I can see the blue of the couch and the white of the sheet. . . that’s it.

Doc: Way down at the bottom. Ok, how’s that. Still comfortable

I think you’re just about set.

Cat groans.

Doc: Is there anything I’m forgetting?

Cat: Not that I can think of.

Doc: Not that you can think of. Ok. Good.

(sound of camera, then of liquid being shaken)

Doc: This is a little contact enhancer.

Cat: (half laugh, half moan)

Doc: It’s 50% water, 50% glycerin. It will help the paddle contact your ass more smartly.

Tiny groan from Cat.

Doc: Ever had this?

Cat: Um-mm. Never even heard of it.

Doc: Well, then this will be a new experience. A little bit cold, OK?

Cat: Oohhh…

Doc: Sorry about that. Sorry. You’re doing great. Just a little coldness.

Cat: Stings, too.

Doc: Stings? Huh, OK. Well, it’s not supposed to sting much. I hope it doesn’t.

Very good. OK.

Doc: Now you see, this is a good thing I’m not a smoker, because if I were a smoker, I would go outside and have a cigarette now and leave you, and that would be mean. But, I would never do that to you. Actually, among other things, you don’t leave someone who is tied up. But I could go sit outside and sit and watch you (through the glass window) while I smoked. But I won’t do that either.

Doc: I’m going to paddle you now. Are you ready?

Are you ready?

Cat: Yes sir (whimpered)

Doc: A little louder please.

Cat: Yes Sir.

(time 13:00)

Doc: Good. When I ask you questions, I need you to answer clearly, not mutter something into the folds of cloth in front of you.

Cat: Yes sir.

Doc: Very good. I think this is going to hurt.

Whack

Cat: Oh god!

Whack

Cat: Oh god!

Doc: It does hurt, doesn’t it?

Cat: Yes.

Whack

Cat: Oh!

Doc: You’re bucking already. (sound distorted by recorder movement)

Whack

Cat: Ow! God!

Doc: I know it’s bad. That paddle really hurts, doesn’t it?

Whack

Cat: Ohh ohh!

Doc: Umm (sympathetically). I can see how bad that is.

Whack

Cat: Ah –ha! Yelling already

Doc: Um, yeah! You’re being so brave. I know this is horrible.

Whack

Cat: oh god oh god oh god!

ow ow ow

Whack

Cat: ooo ow!

Doc: Don’t swear (it sounded as if she were going to say something improper)

Doc: You need to be punished.

Whack

Cat: oh god!

Doc: A little faster

Cat: Oh no oh god please please doc please

Oh oh oh

(whacking continues)

Doc: Stay on the couch! Stay down! (she is bucking)

Doc: I am going to paddle you!

Much hard paddling

Cat: Please, please doc

Oh god, please

Please, oh god…

Doc: Bad girl!

Cat: Oh god! Oh god! Please Doc, god that’s too much.

Doc: You need paddling

Doc: You need this to hurt

Cat: Oh god it’s too much!

Doc:. . . and by God I am going to hurt you

Cat: Please, please, anything

Doc: Down you go! Stay down!

Doc: You need more paddling! (she was trying to stand up)

Cat: Please god, please god, Doc… anything, anything, anything, please…

Doc: How about more? Does that count as “anything”?

Cat: No. No, anything, please stop

Doc: Do you want something different? Do you want a change of pace?

Cat: (sobbing) I don’t want any more.

(time 16:00)

Doc: You don’t want any more? Well, that would be a reasonable place to end it. Except that we have a debt for you to pay to our friend from Canada, don’t we?

Doc: That’s right. (picking up strap) I’m not going to whack your ass any more. I’m going to strap you on your thighs.

Cat: Oh no, god please, Doc, please don’t. Please!

Doc: Back you go.

Cat: Doc please…

Doc: I know you don’t want this.

(sobbing)

Doc: I’ll tell you what we’ll do. I’m going to try it on your butt and see how you like that.

Whack

Cat: Ow ow ow god!

Doc: How is that?

Whack

Cat: Ow, doc!

ow, ow, ow

Strapping is steady, unrelenting.

Doc: You’re doing great. How do you like the strap?
Cat: I hate it.

Doc: Is that a nice thing to say?

Cat: No I’m sorry, I’m sorry!

Doc: For something our friend wanted you to experience?

Cat: Oh god!

Doc: Tell her, thank you for suggesting this.

Cat: I didn’t hear you…

Doc: Tell her, thank you for suggesting this.

Cat: Thank you for suggesting it (weeping).

Doc: Good. Good girl.

Rapid, vigorous strapping

Cat sobbing desperately

Cat: Oh god! Please!

Doc: You need this!

Cat: No more!

Doc: And I’m going to give it to you!

Cat: No more please! No more

Doc: I’m just getting warmed up!

Cat: Doc! Oh doc! No more, please!

Doc: Does it hurt?

Cat: Oh god, yes it does hurt!

No! Please! No, no, no.

Doc: A little harder.

Cat: No! No!! (yelling)

Doc! Please!

Merciless spanking. Crying is frantic, desperate

Cat: Owww! Owwww god! Oh Doc, please!

Oh god, please no more, please…

Doc: You’re being very brave.

Cat: Frantic begging, sobbing

Doc: You need more punishment

You need more strapping

Cat: Ow! Ow! Owww! Please Doc, please!

(screaming) Please doc, please doc, please doc…

Cat: I can’t any more! I can’t! Please!

(ragged gasping)

Doc: Are you crying? (sympathetic sounding again) Oh yes, you are. You have tears dripping down your nose.

Doc: Now sometimes when I finish punishing you, you need a little bit more, another few minutes. Do you need another few minutes?

Cat: No (very shaky)

Doc: No? You’re sure? It’s easy to do it.

You’re not already wanting more?

Cat: No . . . (half laughing)

Doc: Well, I think you’ve had enough for now. I’m going to untie you.

Cat: I twisted that at some point (the strait jacket)

Doc: Give me a hug. And what do you say to me?

Cat: Thank you sir.

Doc: Thank you for what?

Cat: Beating my ass. (laughing)

Doc: You’re welcome. I hope it felt sufficiently punitive.

Cat: And thank you for not attacking my thighs.

Doc: I always believe in leaving you some control. I thought it would be interesting to see how the strap was on your thighs, but we can leave that for another day. I didn’t want to do anything extreme. (this comment is surely ironic)

Cat laughs

Doc: Is that what you came for?

Cat: Yes sir.

Doc: Did you get every bit of it that you needed?

Cat: Yes, sir

Doc: Did you get even more than you needed?

Cat: Yeah!

Doc: Are you happy about that?

Cat: Yeah.

Doc: Good girl. You’re still crying; you’ve still got tears. That’s my well-strapped girl (patting her)

Doc: Did you notice I didn’t give you a warmup?

Cat: Yeah, I did notice that. I wasn’t expecting one, though.

Doc: No. It would have been a mistake.

Cat: I wasn’t expecting a warmup, but I wasn’t expecting what I got, either.

Doc: And what was it that you got that you didn’t expect?

Cat: I got more.

(time 23:00)

Doc: More what?

Cat: Just more

Doc: More paddling? More strapping? And when it hurt, what happened?

Cat: It didn’t stop.

Doc: It got worse, didn’t it?

Cat: Um-hm

Doc: Yeah. When I could see I was hurting you, I would whack you harder and faster

Cat: You did

Doc: Um hmm. That’s pretty traumatic, isn’t it, really? You’re still needing to be held.

Cat: I think I can hold it together . . . I need to just get it together.

Doc: Say it again?

Cat: I think if I can hold it together, I can hold it together. I know it doesn’t make sense.

Doc: Hmm, say it a different way. I’m going to uncuff your ankles.

Doc: So hold it together when?

Cat: Now

Doc: You don’t have to hold it together. I know a lot of people in this situation who would just like to go back on the bed and have a nice long hard cry. There’s nothing else like that. Would you like to do that? (untying ankles)

Cat: I’ll be ok

Doc: Come, let’s lie down for a minute. That’s a pretty serious punishment (walking down the hallway to the bedroom) and I think we should lie here for a couple of minutes. Let’s get this off (the strait jacket)

(now in the bedroom)

Doc: Come on here. Lie here. There’s my girl. You were such a brave girl.

Doc: It was really awful, wasn’t it?

(Cat nods head)

Doc: Yeah. That’s my brave girl.

Cat breaks down, crying again

Um-hm. It’s OK to cry. It’s OK.

Cat sobbing softly

Doc: You don’t even have to have a reason. There you go.

Doc: I’m going to just hold you as long as you need to be held.

--JC