A week later, Sarah, Satia, and I were e-mailing back and forth about the spanking. Satia was feeling stressed by her work, and Sarah advised her:
Get out that little vibrator--you can squeeze in five minutes tonight for a stress-relieving motivational orgasm.
Satia answered by describing her reactions when she listened to the sound file of her spanking:
It was great to relive a portion of that hard spanking -- oh, man, I love how much you two hurt me. I love how much I didn't want it. I love how punished and tormented I felt, and all those marvelous thoughts like how I'd never want that again or how insane I must be and how I change my mind!!! And I really don't want that anymore!!! Not that hard!!!
The reality of my situation and my mindset during a spanking like that is absolute. No enjoyment. No fun. No excitement. No pleasure. I am not liking it anymore! I am not wanting it anymore!! Not that!!!
OOOoooohhh.... I love that..... I love that! I can't tell you how much I love that!!! I relive those feelings, physical, mental, emotional... over and over and feel so fulfilled and deep and excited and in touch and loving it!!!! Punishment is not real punishment if it is only physical. There are just too many internal defenses deep inside me against purely physical pain. You can hear how close I was to the surface from the very beginning of this spanking -- and that's why the pain got to me so much!
OOhh, how I love that. I will remember that glorious spanking for a long time.
<sigh>
You're right, Sarah. It's about time I get that vibrator out of my bag. I'll be thinking of how awful that pain was, and how much I wanted it to really, really, really -- honestly!! -- stop... and how much more I want next time and how much more I'll want it to stop next time! Reverberations like loud music you feel through the floorboards, not your ears, playing all through me right now, just from the memories.
Later tonight, I'll take a break, and get some stress-relieving... per your instructions, Ma'am!!! <giggle> Thanks again, guys.
And yes, thank you so much, Doc!!! You know, when you finished off that spanking with the lexan paddle... I thought I was going to go out of my mind with the pain......
Satia